My life took a huge turn for the better a few years ago. I do not focus on what I survived, I focus on my future. Every now and again I stop, like I am at the crest of a hill and turn back to see where I was. Behind me is a huge dark valley with small patches of light. Light that I would travel to, needing to move forward with my life, but knowing I would need to trudge through the dark to get to the next tiny hill bathed in light. As I slogged through the darkness my path grew ever wider, the brambles that would snag at me, were further back from the trail I walked. Then my path began an upward ascent, like a rock climber with no gear I scrambled ever up. I was wounded, exhausted, and raw. I reached the top of that ridge only to be standing on the edge of a cliff, bottomless and darker than anything I have ever seen. The winds pushed at my back encouraging me, not forcing me, to take a leap of faith. It was a sea of black, the unknown, ready to swallow me up. Yet something inside me reassured my soul, ‘Just take the first step’. So I did. I found the moment I stepped off of the cliff I could find my feet with every step. I was not lost in the blackness. I was the light. Most of the time I only had a fuzzy grey outline of the path. But with every step it becomes clearer and clearer. I feel I am at the crest of yet another hill. The vantage point is vast. The difference this time is I am not exhausted, I am energized! On either side of me I see the people who have supported me, sometimes carrying me. In front of me I see the wide open expanse of possibilities. I will continue to move forward on my path and I hope we meet along the way.
Today marks the public beginning of my business! It is with great pride and thankfulness I, with my mother/business partner, launch Soul Experiences! We will celebrate the “fuzzy path” with friends and family tonight. People who have lifted us up and helped us to be what we are today.
I am blessed. I have food to eat, a place to sleep, friends to laugh with, children to hug, parents who forgive my teenage angst, siblings to connect with over the miles, the support of the man I love and so much more! The blessings I have outnumber the hardships and that alone is my biggest blessing. My hope for each of you is that continue to travel to your ‘light’, counting all of your blessings along the way.
Travel well my friends!